Sunday, April 16, 2006


I was reading a book yesterday regarding stress and it stated that instead of dwelling on your stressors, you should take the time to appreciate the good in your life. Oftentimes people, including me, do not do this.

Whereas I have my share of stressors, I do have much in my life that I do appreciate. I have my pets (2 dogs and a cat) who give me unconditional love. I could not function without them. They make me so happy, especially when I'm down. They make me laugh so much that soon I forget (or put it aside) what I was worried about. Just cuddling them makes me feel good.

I appreciate that I have a house to live in with my pets. At least I have someplace to live; many people do not. At least I have a job, where many people do not. Even though I'm not happy at the job and am currently on medical leave (a workers' comp injury), I appreciate that I'm employed.

I appreciate my friends immensely. I don't know what I would do without them to listen and support me. I also appreciate my two sisters; they seem to be the only immediate family I have. Even though we're all so different, we do love each other and work very hard on our fragile relationships.

Even though I have several medical conditions and a little more because of the injuries I sustained in February, I know that I will eventually recover from these injuries. Many people have very serious medical conditions or are paralyzed; I do not. I need to take the time to appreciate the health that I do have. I think that if I eliminate many stressors, I will eventually feel better and perhaps recover quicker and be relieved from some of my ailments.

I appreciate that I have my sight and can sit outide with my pets to read and enjoy the nice weather. I love flowers, plants, trees, grass, blue sky, puffy white clouds, and birds. I get to experience that each day. I do take the time to "smell the roses."

I just need to take the time to appreciate more in my life rather than dwelling on all the negative things. I need to remind myself of this and practice it several times a day.

Saturday, April 15, 2006


How do you get past procrastination? I keep finding others things to do instead of what I'm supposed to be doing. I've read that procrastination is similar to perfectionism. You want to do the task perfectly so you keep delaying it and in turns nothing gets done.

I want to write a short story and submit it to a contest. How hard can that be? Very difficult. I keep searching for ideas to write on and then don't want to dwell on some of those subjects that may be painful, so I end up doing something else. I can visualize the story unfolding in my head, but when it comes to writing, nothing happens. Is it writers block? I don't think so.

I think a big part of it is that I don't want to fail. Since I'm an editor, I worry a lot about mechanics of the story instead of just writing it down. I know that's true and know what I should do, but I don't.

I work on some ideas, but don't get past the idea stage. I need to expand and develop a story. Any story. It can be funny or dramatic. It's on the tip of my tongue but it just doesn't flow to actual words.

So instead I do something else. How can I break that spell?